16 Oct
It Happens
There might be a couple of letters missing at the beginning of this post’s title. Since my last post I’ve learned that they were able to biopsy 5 of the 7 embryos. That’s OK, I was happy with 5. I was still confident about today’s transfer…until I got the call at 11:00 this morning.
Basically, 4 of the 5 embryos stopped developing. The 5th one made it to the blastocyst stage but was missing the inner cell mass (which is what becomes the fetus), so it was still not viable. The PGD results (not that they matter at this point) were very typical. One normal, one with CF, one carrier, and one that was either normal or a carrier (the weren’t able to test both genes on that one). The one that was missing the inner cell mass they couldn’t get a signal from - another indication something was up with that one.
The doctor is confident that it was just bad luck, and it doesn’t mean the same thing would happen if we were to try again. We can start trying again almost right away. I have to wait for my period to start, then go on BCP for 2 or 3 weeks again. Then I’d start the injectables. He might have me use Lupron instead of Ganirelix next time. It may or may not make a difference, but it doesn’t hurt to try another method since we had no luck with this one.
I had a good cry this morning, and sometimes you just need a good cry. I felt better after getting more of an explanation from the doctor. (My first call was just the nurse telling me they stopped developing and she’s really sorry.) I went shopping after, because some days there’s nothing like retail therapy! I feel ready to start this process over…hopefully with happier results.
I am just so so sorry about this. Really, is anything fair anymore? I’m with you on the retail therapy, though. It always helps…slightly. (hugs)
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I’m sorry. Been there. It sucks.
Chin up.
Erin
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I came over from Murgdans blog. I’m so sorry to hear things didnt go as they should have.
Big e/hugs!!
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I’m here from Murgdan’s site and send virtual *hugs* your way. I’m so sorry to hear about this. :(
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Conceive this! sent me to your blog. I am so sorry. I hope that it doesn’t ring hollow. I wish you all the best with round #2 IVF!
I am glad that the cry and retail therapy helped. Best wishes to you and your husband.
Leah
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I agree there are a few missing letters in front of your title. So sorry to hear the bad fortune. Keep positive and keep trying. There are people out there you don’t know praying for you!!
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I am really sorry to hear about your loss.Retail thearpy helps. We went thru the same in August. I am a carrier of CF, and my husband has a mild CF (Pancreatitis and CBAVD).
We went for PGD in 2006, and did not have any valid embroyos, we tried again this year and were very happy when we found that we had 2 good ones left. They transferred the embroyos and we later found out that only one attached. We were a little sad about the other one but still very happy about the one that attached. But at 7 weeks, it was found out that my baby had stopped growing. I had to go for a D&C. I have recovered physically but my eyes fill up with tears everytime I see a baby. As I mentioned my husband has chronic pancreattis and this was our god given gift, our one chance of happiness,but it was taken away. Unfortunately our insurance does not cover IVF or PGD and we had to pay from our own pockets. We have spent all our savings on the last attempt. Not sure if we will be able to do it again.
I am sorry again for your loss. You will have success the next time all my prayers are with you.
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I am so sorry about your embryos. You have already been through so much, it sucks to have this on top of everything else.
I have been indulging in a bit of retail therapy myself lately - enjoy!
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I just wanted to say I’m so sorry again. I’m glad you can start right away again and I’ll be praying it have a happier ending.
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Oh Dawn, I am so very, very sorry. Sending you giant hugs!!!
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I don’t know what to say since sorry doesn’t seem like enough! My eyes welled with tears for you, I can’t even imagine! I am sorry and my thoughts and prayers are with you always! ((HUGS))
I agree shopping sometimes does help! But then again that’s when I can’t find anything to buy! And then it sucks even more!
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Dawn, there’s nothing I can say to express how sorry I am that this happened. I hope you and Al take some time for yourselves this weekend. You are in our thoughts daily and I’m praying that every single step of the way this next time goes perfectly!
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I’m here from Murgdan’s blog - I’m so sorry hon!
Thinking of you and sending HUGS!
xxx
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hi, stopped here from murgdan’s blog. i’m so sorry about this IVF cycle. it just sucks and isn’t fair.
i love to buy myself a little happy when i get kicked right in the broken baby maker. it helps…some. good luck w/ IVF #2.
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:( so sorry to hear about this…I have been there. My embryos only made it to 4 cell stage, but they tried to transfer them anyway. All of the rest didn’t even divide and couldn’t be frozen. I have to believe that you learn something from every cycle and can make improvements and changes and have a better outcome next time :)
thinking about you, xoxo, april
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I also came from Conceive This.
I am so sorry about your little embryos. There’s nothing about IVF that isn’t hard. Nothing.
IF really sucks (just miscarried an early IVF/ICSI baby myself). Let’s just get one BIG ‘ole cheesecake (everyone aboard?) and go shopping.
Here’s hoping your next cycle goes picture-perfectly, all the way to 40 weeks.
Hugs to you,
Julia
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That totally sucks hun :( I’m so very sorry {{{HUGS}}}
(I’m just some random stranger stopping by from Conceive This!)
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I just came over from Cindy’s blog. I’m so sorry!!! Tons and tons of baby dust to you for this next cycle!
Kate
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Dawn, I’m so sorry!! I really hope and pray that the next cycle is your cycle!!
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I happened upon your blog. I’m really sorry for your loss.
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Over from ICLW
I am so sorry that you had to endure all of this and then didn’t even get to transfer. That sucks so bad. We haven’t gotten to IVF yet. I can’t imagine How terrible this must be. (((hugs)))
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